Monday, July 19, 2010

14 days abstinent

Things I learned today-

I replaced my food addiction with the addiction of anger, primarily directed to someone that is innocent and smaller than me- my son. Let me not spend a lot of time saying I am ashamed and I feel like I broke my child... ...let me be productive, I know now what I have done, I know why I had done it and I know now I can be better.

I have spent the large portion of this journey giving my weight up to my higher power...and that has been so freeing. EXCEPT NOW, Now I am approaching a special get away trip to a paradise like location and the closer it gets, the more I think about clothes and when I think about clothes, I think about weight and when I think about weight I really become an insane human. (...not a place I want to be) ...so I say a prayer-please take this away from me...I don't want my happiness to lie in the hands of a cute tank top!

1 comment:

  1. Trust in the LORD with all your heart
    and lean not on your own understanding;
    in all your ways acknowledge him,
    and he will direct your paths.

    Proverbs 3, 5-6

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