07/06/2010
Hello.
My first blog experience ever.
The point of my blog...well, simply to document what I am feeling, thinking and doing. You see, I am FAT, obese, large, special sized, unique, large boned, plus size, woman sized, extra extra sized, large sized...pick one. But really the point is...I over eat. I binge eat. I eat for many many many reasons (happy, sad, party, friends in town, friend left town, husband is sweet, husbands an ass, the kids need a treat, I deserve a treat....)

But today, I want to tell you what I eat.

I want to tell whoever and all the truth about how much I eat.

Because here is the deal. I am miserable and unhappy. And I know the only way to be happy is to Be Loving, Feel Loved and Be Responsible.

So today, I am learning to be responsible.

By telling the ugly fat truth about myself, you may or may not love me. And that is ok. Because it is not your job to love me. But it is my job to tell the ugly truth about me and when someone does love me through seeing me at my ugliest... I will truely feel loved. A true love. Not the imitation love the brownies, candy bars, ice cream...provide, but true unconditional love.